A broken bond has no Winners...

How could it be ever possible to remove something in your life when you find it in every corner and everything that you do? Everything you can think of, there is a relation or connection with her. My clothes are all bought by her; My table is full of gifts by her; Everywhere I go, there is a memory of her around. Anything I see here, I would always think about her.

Well, the truth is that she is not here anymore, much like losing a kin who has always been there for you for years; a kin who shares every single thing you have in your life. Now, I am all alone here on my own and it is of course upsetting. My life all this years is so strongly connected with her and to break this bond is almost impossible. Sometimes, I really wish I would suffer from Amnesia and forget about all this things.

Life at my side is painful and I know it would never be easy for her. Her life is as strongly connected to mine and we suffer the same fate. Well, at the end of the day, there is no such thing as a winner or a loser in a relationship like this. In this case, we are both losers. We lost someone who meant so much in our lives. I know that this seperation is good for the two of us and I know she knows it too. She is definitely stronger than me and should be able to walk out of this faster than me.

What is she doing? I thought... But I know my care and concern will only makes it difficult for everyone...