Changing my Perspective of Life...

Learning to let go of things and see things from a perspective of life. In life, I guess many of us had seen a lot of wierd things in life and well, I guess I must say that this event has totally changed my perspective of things. Today, all I can say is that I am simply too naive to believe that in this world, as long as you throw in your heart, others will do that too.

Zhi Zhuo, thanks for showing me one side of life in which I had never seen in my life. I guess if I never explore, I would never know what it would be like to see the darker side of things. Sometimes, darker need not mean that life is not brighter. In the past, sharing my life and my everything to a person just do not seemed to let me get back what I expected to get.

However, he is right that everyone has a reason for everything they do. Sometimes, there is no need for us to really know the real reason. If a person is all out to leave you, he or she would give you all sorts of reason which sometimes never make sense. Why go on to find and investigate to know the real reason when the truth will hurt even more? Why go on to pester a person if the person is finding all ways to leave you to look for greener pastures in life?

Well, thanks for telling me that in life, it is always better for people to be selfish. In reality, it sounds only right that you would be able to look after others only when yourself is looked after thoroughly. I guess I was really naive to share every bit of my life and everthing that I have with someone else. I really have to learn to stop giving. I am very much determined to do so.

Whatever lies ahead of my future, no one will ever know. Not me, not him, not her nor anyone else in this world. Only exploring the life ahead would find the real answer ahead of me. Now, I will make sure that my heart will never be bared to a person anymore. It is going to be shut so tight, I am sure I would never be hurt by love anymore.

I guess, this event has really stucked me real hard. Like what many had said, it is impossible to heal this wound and scar in life since it is so deep and painful. The only thing this scar can do now is to remind me that it never pays to treat someone the way I did. The way I love people is wrong. This scar would always remind me that being a good guy never pay in this world.

I would be looking for a way out. From now on, I am going to do what I can to change everything in my life. However, I am not going to say what my plans are for me since I do not even know what lies ahead. However, one thing for sure is, I am going to change totally to a person which is totally different from the me today. I can feel the transformation coming and I would have to in order to bring that painful scar away from my heart.