A Game of Pool...

A game of pool suddenly strucked me. I lost. I lost to a solid friend who always stood by me no matter what happens. The punch simply woke me up from things and soon, I began to realize, after such a long time, at the age of 24, I had nothing. Today, I realized that I was bare with nothing in life which I can boast about. Simply, I had to say, I do not have any achievements in life which I can use to boast about and make the people around me proud.

This realization made me wonder of my thinking, philosophy in life and my attitude towards things in life. Am I wrong? Am I wrong to believe that working hard for things and leading a no-nonsense life is going to lead me anywhere to success? Am I wrong to believe that planning in life is important and showing discipline towards the plan will be the correct way of life.

I had always been a planning person, wary and cautious about very little step that I make. Today, my planning and the discipline to follow it hurt me. Now, I have nothing. After all those careful thoughts and movements, I fell into a big trap which lays just in front of me. I got stuck and forced myself to break free. In the process, I got hurt.

Sharing my life and what I have in life with someone else had always been the greatest happiness I had ever felt. Today, this happiness hurt me real deep. Well, no point looking back at the past. Moving forward is my only option in life and no matter how unwilling I am, I am going to move forward. A positive note though, I did not owe anything to anyone nor have any regrets...

A nice day in general. Slowly, I am used to being life with only myself alone.... Learning...