Battered and Hurt...

Well, I guess what everyone said is right. Till this date, I had not done anything at all in life which is worth talking about. I guess putting my heart in one place and working so hard in a relationship is a grave mistake for me. In the end, I am still alone here.

I am trying hard to recover from this pain but perhaps, the thought of realizing that this 5 years of effort had gone down to the drain simply makes me feel very painful. I guess learning the hard truth is never easy. I do not wish to think about how she is going on with her live. Is she leading a better life now? Is she feeling as miserable as me? I do not dare to venture on to find the answer as I know that no matter what the answer is, I would feel miserable when I know it.

Sometimes, I do worry about her well-being, worried if she is coping well and handling all her problems well. Or, perhaps, someone else is capable of doing it better than I used to. No matter how hard I wish to know, I guess I really have to learn how to curb this feeling as it would only make me feel more miserable.

Preparing to go for Dragon Boating now. After so many gruelling workouts this week to tire me out, I finally feel my body giving way. My back is aching and my muscles are sore. However, I am determined not to back down just because of all this. At least, it is a good way for me to release all this unhappiness...