Moving on to a new World ahead...

As usual, everything went into one big poiece of mess. We agreed not to contact and she accepted without a hint of unwillingness and despair. Well, deep inside me, I know she is as unwilling as I am but I know that if I continue to stay her and keep in contact, I would only continue to like her and want to protect her all the while. No doubt, she is really the girl which I really, really want to spend my life with but then things do not always turn out the way you want it to be.

Everytime, I had to say such nasty things to her because I know that if I speak out the truth, we would not be able to move on with life. She is not that selfish as many thought that she is. It's just that I am not the man she would choose to be with the rest of her life. I just have to accept it. This triangular love is too complicated for me and I decided to step out of it. Hopefully, one day, I can truly wish her the best between the two of them.

For now, I would just continue to try and push myself forward. Not contacting her is hard. I mean the first night from this decision was once again a sleepless night but then, I guess it is better for me to be here hurting alone rather than everyone get upset. I will move on... A promise I made to myself and her...