As usual, everything went into one big poiece of mess. We agreed not to contact and she accepted without a hint of unwillingness and despair. Well, deep inside me, I know she is as unwilling as I am but I know that if I continue to stay her and keep in contact, I would only continue to like her and want to protect her all the while. No doubt, she is really the girl which I really, really want to spend my life with but then things do not always turn out the way you want it to be.
Everytime, I had to say such nasty things to her because I know that if I speak out the truth, we would not be able to move on with life. She is not that selfish as many thought that she is. It's just that I am not the man she would choose to be with the rest of her life. I just have to accept it. This triangular love is too complicated for me and I decided to step out of it. Hopefully, one day, I can truly wish her the best between the two of them.
For now, I would just continue to try and push myself forward. Not contacting her is hard. I mean the first night from this decision was once again a sleepless night but then, I guess it is better for me to be here hurting alone rather than everyone get upset. I will move on... A promise I made to myself and her...
Moving on to a new World ahead...
作詞：曉華 作曲：信樂團
Perfromance Song 3- 那首歌
This is a song sang by a Singer by the name of 林宥嘉. Well, this is a really sad song and somehow, singing it gave me a lot of feeling and a lot of memories.
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那首歌
Quiet Week Throughout...
Well, this week is kind of quiet where nothing seemed extra exciting nor special. I guess thats why people feel tired about things after sometime as there is simply nothing exciting about. When that point comes, people move on with their live and look for new excitement. Somehow, I can feel this mononity coming in and in a way or another, I would need to move on to the next excitement. Fortunately, Dragon Boat still can give me that kind of Adreline Pump which I am sorting for these days.
Preparing to push my project forward again.... Pondering, Pondering, Pondering...
Ouch...
Well, this is not new. This kind of pain which I am feeling inside is not new. Had tried my best to push it away and I suppose things would not say walk away just by sitting there and not thinking about it. I thought I did a good job but all of a sudden, a slice of Wife Biscuit got it all back and me thinking about things again. Sigh... I know it will go off... It will...
Things hurt for a reason. Even though it hurts till now and it would for a long time, things would never be the same. I will never be....
Structured Workout Reaping Rewards
Well, I am so happy that the workout we are having is seemingly working for my body! Ha, well, now I am able to do more pull ups than before and my running pace had improved significantly. However, one sad thing is that my face still look as round and my poor tummy does not seemed to be able to be flattened despite the pains I had been through.
Going to the Gym today with Wee Kiat. As usual, with him around, the Chest Routine is always the main thing in which we would whacked everytime we meet. Had been training my back the day before and my shoulders yesterday. Although my body felt tired, my chest is generally intact for this coming workout.
Looking forward to the Gathering this coming Evening. Althugh ECP is nowhere near the term close to my house, I am actually pretty excited to see some of my relatives whom I had not seen for like years... =)
Sunday under the Sun = Ouch!
Well, as usual, my Sunday was reserved for a serious dragon boat session but the only difference today is that I am more motivated to do well and train hard. The experience in Regatta is overwhelming and really made me realize the fun in racing and training hard for the events. Regatta was history and now they are looking forward to training for other events which are coming up. Together with a new friend brought in by Samuel, the tough training began.
Today, as usual, the fast run down the stretch began the entire training and a full feldged pull-up session is enough to drain my hands and body thoroughly. Everything was kept simple and rowing began with a warm-up row of 3km. What distinctively changed the day from the others is that the training was in a small corner of Kallang River where I experienced my first 5oom row.
The water is alot heavier than the open areas which we usually row. In addition to that, the High Tide today resulted in a tougher rowing condition as compared to other places. Although the water is calm, it is too heavy for the boat to have any significant pick-up. The difference between a 500m row and a 300m row is mainly the difference in pace. A 300m race has no room for error and every single pull is hard and fierce.
To last that kind of intensity for a 500m race is pretty difficult. Well, an increase in workload by almost twice the time, the strategy here is mainly to maintain coordination and longer pulls. Occasional hard pulls will be required for the boat to pick up and it requires a hell lot of coordination to maintain the penetration.
One commendable thing today is that Samuel and I did not pull out our pedal from the water even once. We endured the painful session and made sure every pull counts. Like what the trainer always say, "Pull Your Weight and not let others pull yours." It is important that we train harder so as to contribute more to the team rather than be a liability. I guess the famous statement of, "Do not ask what the team can do for you. Ask what you can do for the team." is essentially displayed in a Dragonboat team...
After this hardworked session, the result is an abrased adominem, blistered hands and a sunburnt body. I am loving it.... =)
A Cool Deepavali Celebration in the Gym...
Life was simple this Deepavali and the Celebrations had only one objective- "Whack as hard as possible!". All day long we did nothing but Gym but this time round, it is such a huge event in Clementi Sports Hall. Well, the Gym Session consisted of almost everyone we used to go gym with. There is the WGC Gang (Me, Jian Hong, Steve and Tuan Wee), there is the SIM Gang (Me, Wee Kiat), Bukit Batok 288B cum Dragonboat Gang (Me, Samuel and Benjamin). Well, the gang is still within the legal context since the maximum for a gathering was five people.
What really surprised me was Tuan Wee's arrival. Well, he is my understudy during Army and he is suppose to be in Australia. Now he is back! It had been a really long time since I last saw him. However, it is sad to learn that he has to forsake that half year study there due to the change in course structure which effectively extended his course by another one year. 
The Gym was really fruitful with the usual routine between me and wee kiat. The occasional rests between sets is being enhanced with all those hearty chats with the Gangs talking bout their current life and how had the rest of them been and such. Well, they did kept on making fun of my weight loss these days and how dragon boat had trained me these days. 
I am glad that everyone is doing just fine. Well, Jian Hong is rushing in NUS and doing fine; Steve has a well planned degree education coming up and have a decent job now; Tuan Wee may had just stopped school but I suppose he has some great plans ahead to make up for it; Samuel and Company is progressing well, doing things that he likes; Wee Kiat enjoying every moment of the gym sessions we are having despite the hectic work load and school. I am really relieved. Hopefully, more of such outings would come... A Simple but Exciting Friday
After that, we then proceeded to walk around at Bras Basah Complex where I went to look at some guitars and stuff. I came across a 700plus guitar by J&D in Ranking Sports and I am really impressed by the make of the Guitar. For that pricing, I have a full solid top and back guitar made of spruce top and rosewood back and side. The sound of it is wicked and definitely worth more than it was valued. Too bad, I do not have that kind of money but hopefully, working hard means I would have my Lakewood Guitar in my arms at the end of next year!
The final adventure came as we went to Bukit Merah for a simple meal at Brinda. Well, many of you might not had heard of it but it is an Indian Resturant which basically serves Indian Food. For the first time in my life, I entered an Indian Resturant! Well, we ordered a Chapati set which comes with some potato and vegetables curry. In addition to that, there is this "Indian Doughnut" which is basically dough and onion. All I can say is that the food is very different from what we usually can take... =)
River Regatta 2007
It is a quiet Saturday morning where most people are sleeping. The ride down to Raffles Place seemed serene as the train seemed empty and quiet. This scene is a direct contrast of the scene in Boat Quay. River Regatta race is just about to begin and the entire UOB Building is filled with Dragonboat Enthusiasts from all over the places. Everywhere, you can see groups running together, shouting cheers and the morale is in the high. For a newbie like me, such grand scenes definitely took me aback. Knowing that I would be going down to row makes me even more nervous... 
Unlike racing in Kallang, the water is more uncontrollable here. The tide is always changing and this make the boat difficult to control. Every now and then, there would be crashes and collisions between the boats and this made the race even more intriguing. Soon, my turn came and I am about to enter the waters. Rowing from the mounting point to the race area is really cool. The movement of everyone is in unison and we are highly focused for the race. 
Under the bridge, it is a total feeling as of being a spectator watching the show. Every boat seemed so competitive and eager to win and you can hear each boat getting ready with such strong morale and zest. When the whistle blow, the drums began and everyone was shouting away as they row. In the boat, there is no room for thinking. All we could do is row with all our might and concentrate in unison as much as possible.
In the subsequent races, everything went off smoothly and we went on to win a few other races. The experience at Regatta is really an Eye Opener for me. You get to see students from all schools compete; Corporates like OCBC, ABN, Jurong Port; Sports Groups like Safsa, Sea Hawk; all geared up and ready to race off one another. The cohesion among the teams are all beyond words. I used to tell myself to treat it as a recreational thing where competition is secondary. Well, after regatta, I have to say racing is definitely addictive!A Sense of Guilt...
A sudden sense of guilt climbed into me. Well, I spent a hell lot of money this month on secondary items and although I must say that I did well to buy such things at a bargain. Here, I shall make a confession(Praying Style...) of the sins I had made the past few days:
Dear God,
I felt bad knowing that I had spent alot of money on many items in which in many people's eyes are secondary but then I really cannot help it! Either the items are too good to resist, or they are something in which I wanted to get for a really long time.
First of all, the Oakley Radar Sunglasses. I know spending such amount money on a raining season does not sound right but it is a real beauty. Moreover, it took us almost 2 years for us (Me and my Glasses) to be united together! Well, I planned to get it for so long but then everytime I wants to get it, the need to save money just pulled me away. I am glad that we are finally together after such a long time. I promise I would love it as much and that does not mean I will neglect my Oil Drum as well. She meant as much to me... =)
Secondly, the purchases at Armani Exchange is an Accident. Well, it would not had happened if I did not enter Iseatan; it would not happen if there is no Sales happening there; it would happen if I did not find anything that fits me; it would not happen if you did not create such a huge Sale! Manz, 80% off for a pair of jeans (Selling at 50 bucks), how to resist!? Moreover, buying 2 pairs for someone who seldom buy much clothes is not that bad rite?
PS: Well, I promise that I would stop my indulgence for the month but then, please... Do not create anymore such temptations. I may not be able to take it!
Feel a little better after writing this out. Ha! Well, at least I finally got some things in which I wanted to get for such a long time makes me feel better. Maybe I should just take it as a reward for myself for passing my driving test and completing such a major project at work. For now, things goes back to normal...
Hair Product Review:- Loreal DirtyClean Texturizing Clay
Been putting my hair on a test using the recently launched Loreal DirtyClean Texturing clay. Well, the main reason for me to look for a new Hair Styling material is mainly due to the size of the bottle. I am looking for something compact which I can slot in nicely into my grooming bag easily. This bottle is small enough and definitely packs the styling power I would need after gym or dragon boat training.
My hair is somewhere at medium length. The clay feels very dry when applied on the hands but what surprised me is that it does not leave my hair too dry like the Gatsby one. This product makes the hair easy to style and it does smell pretty nice taking into account that they did put in some citric flavour in the product. After applying it, it leaves some shine on the hair, making it look neater but not restrictive.
I had always had problems with my hair due to the fact that they are dry and thick. one thing commendable about this product is that the added moisture makes it easier to style. However, one problem with it is that the holding power seemed to fade during the evening and some touching up would be required. Restyling was simple as adding a bit more clay would do the trick.
In general, it is a nice product if you have dry hair like mine. Thumbs up for this wonderful product by Loreal...
Note: Wondering if the dirty look applies on me? =)
A cool place by the name of MMMM!
We arrived at the stall wondering what to get for the BBQ. Although we do have some items in mind, the wide variety really made me and Su Mian go crazy and do not know what to get. Just Bacon itself, comes with quite a few variety. Feeling confused, we decided to seek help from the Staff or should I say, the Friendly Chef (I guess being Hainanese helps!). He gave us a few cool ideas and suggestions as of what to buy and recommended how should we Marinate the meat. In the end, we bought quite a handful of items at a very reasonable price (Below S$60). The list goes:Pork (Garlic and Butter)
Well, the meat is tender and soft and the seasoning blends well with the meat. However, the problem here is that the meat is pretty dry after cooking it. I guess the main reason for it is mainly because the meat is too lean. However, I do like it lean due to my diet!
Beef Steak (French Marinate)
The beef is definitely one of my favourite. The taste is very much heavenly and the chef did a great job in making the steak thin. I really loved as the meat taste vary tender and nice. A really good option for BBQ but do be very careful as the steak do not taste as good when it is overcooked!
Scallops (Garlic and Pepper)
This is a highly recommended option! Trust me. The scallops are fantasticly marinated and the best part is that they are very, very FRESH! The sad thing is that we only bought six and the only regret here is not getting more of it! The Scallop simply melts in the mouth and the juice is really wonderful. The freshness lingers in ur mouth for a long time and simply makes me feel like eating more...Dori Fish (Garlic and Butter)
We bought this mainly because its my mom's favourite. In the end, it turned out to be everyone's favourite! Well, the fish is nicely marinated and packed in Aluminium Foil nicely by the Chef. My Mom fell in love with it and so did my Aunt. We could not help it but tried it ourselves. In the end, there was no turning back. It is addictive!Cocktail Susage with Cheese
This is a Kid's favourite. My two little cousins loved it so much that Taiwan Sausage nearly lost its footing as the favourite food for kids. Well, the sausage is rich in cheese and they are extremely tasteful. The chicken is fresh and not as salty as those you would find outside. However, do beware of the hot cheese...Quan's favourite mixed with his greatest hate- Vegetables. MMMM! is kind enough to help us wrap the bacon nicely with carrot and asparagus which we bought from NTUC nearby. Well, all I can say is that the bacon is not salty at all and somehow or rather, it is not as oily as many think it would be. It is generally crispy and the combination with the vegetables are a master stroke!
Well, the BBQ was a wonderful one and I have to say that MMMM! did a great part in making it so by providing us with so much wonderful food and choices. The chef is a really nice person and from the food, we can see that he placed a lot of effort and pride in making tasty meat available to us. In addition, the price is very reasonable and it is definitely worth it. However, do purchase them a few days ahead as it would need a day or so for the Chef to marinate it for you. 
The stall is situated at the 4th storey of a building next to Novena Square. Well, they are linked but I feel that they are seperate buildings. If you wish to learn more about enjoying meat, this is a wonderful place to visit. The next BBQ would definitely include some more food from them since they are such nice wonderful people and the food they provide are simply lovely...Pulsating Week for the Weak Hearted Me...
What a painful week! All I can say is that the whole week was an exciting one; perhaps, it was one of the most exciting week of my life. Well, the story goes from here:-
Monday
Well, as usual, Monday is a boring day but then it was kind of a depressing day. Was down with a small flu and everything just seemed to be in a mess. This time, I gave myself one day to slowly think things through and finally got an answer and a decision to all the bugging problems surrounding me through the week.
Tuesday
Got back at work with all the things intact. From that day onwards, I told myself that I am down long enough to give everyone in the company enough trouble. Life is simple. I am glad that my moodiness did not affect my relationships with my colleagues seriously. At least, they do not hate me for that. However, it was a pretty quiet and tiring day where everything seemed to be in a slow state.
Wednesday
The day where everything is going to an end. Well, I knew that this day would come and everything is supposed to be back to normal after this day. Well, I had worked hard enough and long enough for everything and ensuring that she is off safely. Although I am hurt again in the process, I guess it is not that painful after all since I had already expected all this happening. A simple KTV Session with Jun Yao and a good scolding session from him had simply woken me up and further made sure that my decision made is definitely a good one.
Thursday
Well, everything is more and more clearer. Spent some time on my project and I guess there was a lot of catching up to do. It is generally a happy day mainly because I had decided to leave that big heavy rock in my life alone and not going to touch it. I tried to push it away as hard as possible and in the end, got my hands cut again. Well, I decided to leave it there alone and not touch it again. Although it will always be blocking the way but at least, I would not get hurt again by touching it.
Went off to the Gym after a long period of non-workout weeks and I really have to say that the standard had dipped tremendously. Well, the busy work schedule and tough nights did not help in anyway but I am sure I am going to rebuild where I had left off and go for the better. After all, Regatta is just round the corner and I should do my best to work even harder for it! After the gym, had a hearty meal with a really nice sweey girl.
Well, we knew each other for sometime and yeahz, she is really nice. Sad to say, in just one day, she got to know so many of my deep hidden secrets which no one else in the world knows but this is life. After the meal, we went off walking around the mall, looking for things here and there before going off seperately. Thanks! For the nice company...
Friday
It is a focus day. Today, there is nothing but workout, workout and more workout. It is been a long time since I last worked out in the gym with Wee Kiat and as usual, we whacked our usual regime with more load. It is a real solid 2 hour gyming session and I have to say that with him around, there is no such thing as lazing and relaxing. It is a tough session which ended off with a cool 3km run on the threadmill. Pushed myself a bit more and decided to work myself through and ready for the race coming up on saturday.
After that, went on to Novena Square with Sumian to look for BBQ Food for Saturday Evening. Came across a cool place called MMMMMM... which basically sells Meat at an affordable price and definitely, a cool place to visit if you wish to know more about Meat and marinating them. Nice place to go to though. I would be writing an article on it soon and yeah, with some reviews on the food we had the other time.
One thing to mention, we drove there and once again, the second time I drove, I moved around like mad. From Ang Mo Kio to Novena; Novena to Holland Village, Holland Village to Ang Mo Kio, Ang Mo Kio to Toh Tuck. What a drive man! Well, it does boost my confidence a little but it also act as a warning to myself: Driving can be quite dangerous and the responsibility is large. Being a passenger and driver is really different. A lot of things to check and alot of things to look after. Sigh, I even forgot to lock the door when I left the car!
Saturday and Sunday
This article is long enough. I shall stop here and place a full story soon regarding Regatta and My Mom/Brother birthday celebration.... The main things which makes my week so pulsating and exciting!
